Homesick at home?

Three days this week I´ve been waking up feeling im not done sleeping yet. With feeling horror of needing to leave my bed.
Today I actually woke up happy to be awake. Strange.. but nice.
My second cousin once said that it was so weird that he always went to bed not feeling tired at all, but woke up more tired then he was the day before. And really.. what´s the point of sleeping if you only get tired?
When I went down to the coffee house today I realized that it´s just two weeks until I go out travelling again, or go on vacation. And it is scary...
I know I should be lucky and jump up and down. But this time I really enjoy myself and my life back home. So what´s the point of running away for a month then?
I said once before that my Gothenburg has gotten smaller by the years. It 's basicly my job, and the coffe house. A small bit of a whole city. But such a good little bit though. It´s gonna be nice to come to Thailand again. But this time I´m leaving a home I actually gonna miss. A home I really enjoy.
But on the other hand,, if the answer to the everyday question "How are you" is "Good, but tired".. Maybe it´s the sun calling for you.
It´s just a month and home is gonna be here when I get back.
I am Charlie. I am the boy who is feeling homesick before leaving my home. I am Charlies neurotic head.